Fiction
FATHERLESS
Ah! What a great time to be alive I always wanted to pen this down so here it goes FATHERLESS! yeah, you heard it right now I am sure this question may arise in everyone’s mind that what it really meant? Or maybe people may ask what is Fatherless all about? So, as you all are aware of Fathers or Fatherhood but to me, it's a little different and one of its kind .so let me answer this question and elaborate a little more. Neither my father is dead nor he's lost infect he's alive and perfectly fine, the thing is he just not have that father’s soul and emotions as I have never experienced it at all and named it as "fatherless figure. Being a fatherless daughter is an unusual feeling yet unbearable of all. I am sure you all must be wondering but it’s the biggest darkest truth of my life having a fatherless figure as he never looked up to us like fathers do. He never cared about us to an inch in any sense at all like what we are doing in our lives or what we have been through all those years and days until now.
I know this will never be going to end but this little stubborn child in me keeps pushing me and vigorously looking for that One Father in Fatherless Figure but the struggle continues until it ends us! You know it’s really very painful when you know you have a father figure but it’s only a statue without a soul. All can see is it hurts and what am I supposed to do to fill that space within me that’s keep eating me and increasing my thirst even more and knowing that it will never be going to be filled with desired results. Do you know how it feels? It feels horribly hollow, empty, trembling, scary and unwanted. Well it’s been quite a long journey and I have learned to live with it all by myself as I am feed on this ...he brought me up this way but he didn't even bother to fill the empty space that I will be going to carry all my life I wish he could ever realize the damage he has already done.
This one's for you my FATHERLESS FATHER You need to know this all my childhood is gone waiting for you to be on my parents meeting and you never came, my teenage has gone waiting for you to protect me, rescue me and be my guard but again you never came and even when I graduated was waiting, holding a degree to hear that sound of fatherly proud words but as always that space remained empty. Now I am 30 years old without you and counting and I know you will still not even try to come and finally, all the hurricanes and heavy storms have been passed and we both are still alive to continue with the fatherless battle, don't we?
The only thing I am totally and constantly afraid of is my marriage I never wish or have any desire to get married to anyone because I see you in every man and I really don't want to have any men in my life let that space to be empty and cherish the sweet nothingness forever. There were the days
I use to feel you in every man and then here I am now living a NO MAN FIGURE LIFE that you gave me. I am no more what you want me to be I may be fatherless or featherless but I am a daughter of fatherly mom and as long as she's there I am enough and all alive and that’s the whole extract of a fatherless figure.
At the end of the day, the only wish I have is to escape from this enigma of the fatherless figure. I wish that day comes in my life when this one less lonely girl gets to meet his only father in the heavens forever. I really pray to GOD that if I really ever got a second chance please don’t curse me or bless me with this fatherless figure ever again all I want is this little innocent wish of being a daddy's little princess forever as I will be one of the fortunate ones if it ever happens and yes I will be... As for now, I have no desire of being a daughter of fatherless figure trust me its great disease and curse of all. May it never happen to have happened ever again in my life or anyone's life. So that was my ultimate survival story I cried a river and still, space is largely empty, dark and hollow.
And one thing more last but not the least I never celebrated my birthdays and father’s day yes never but in the end, I couldn't do anything about it but to suffer...No more now as I am all set for more and happier smiles and teeth bursting happiness coming all the way and no one owns this but I... caught you I know you all just think that if I ever hate my father for being this way well I would say no! Yes, it’s a No infect I feel sorry for him and it hurts too because you know it’s such a blessing and much of a life to be a Father but I guess it was a curse of nature that he is been eliminated from such nature's blessing and what about us daughters well there is nothing to worry just tilt that crown on your head and yes you will always be nature's little princess and that my love will always be with you that nobody can question. I hope my survival story doesn't hurt anyone because of its nothing but the reality. Cheers to life because you only live once so make the most and best out of it whether you are a daddy's little princess or a Fatherless daughter!
I loved a Coward!
Once there was a girl who loved a guy with all her heart and soul and he also replied the same as the days go by she following her heart at every step to make him realize and believe that she loves her too and he kind of believed her and she loved him so deep that there was no way going back but t her lover seemed doubtful but was still there as a confused or maybe like a coward lover and he couldn't love her as she wanted to be loved .So the mystery starts from here the guy wanted to love but didn't seemed so and lack the courage but the girl is all gone and deep in love only dead could apart them.
On the other hand, one less lonely girl decided to approach him finally and expressed all that she had saved for so long to him and she did it like a warrior and there was no going back. This all happened because of the love and signs given by him and she was daring enough to text him first on his social media account as someone else just to test her love which she thought he could surely pass so she started a conversation on daily basis through online media not decided to meet yet and he also started talking with a flow. After a few days, she finally asked him do you love anyone and he replied NO, not at all and it was the moment of her life she was shocked clears her throat and took a deep breath. She calmed herself by giving him another chance so with all new strength she told him the truth that who she really is and he replied with puzzled mind saying who are you? And acted like nothing really happened and ran away just like that such a cowardly dog and that was the day her life changed completely all the sweet memories, future building, fairy tales shattered while she was busy picking her pieces as he left her broken all alone in her castle of love but she was a big girl then she stood up ever so strong and build her castle ever so strong with all the guarded walls around and protection sheet ever so high so that no one reach her unless the deserved one. She's now protected and relieved with no desired of love and to be loved as someone had spelled her heart to be filled with emptiness and nothingness. How someone turns the one into nothing and still not realizing the damage they have done to the one? Petty me I loved a coward!
Magical Pit
It was a day to remember she was swirling around in her thoughts of having a true love and just right then a young yet mysterious soul looked at her , she felt something deep down and seems like she found one.
He used to follow her wherever she goes as if he can't even breathe unless he sees her. And the most interesting part is she knows who's following her... The one she always dreamt of but it was still a mystery as following her was not enough because she has gone far and wanted more of him...
But the magic of him and mystery made her curious she tried all the possible doors to enter..
He thought he was smart enough that to never let her know of what he's up to...As he was just a mystery which never or ever can be understood but nature helped her and soon she realized that she's following an unanswered path..
So she finally approached him and was near to her never-ending grief ...
She innocent and true fell for someone who never really took her serious but enjoyed the true magic love of hers...
She was a magic and he just a mystery...
It all ended as she dig a magical pit and herself fell into it with unknown feelings and infinite questions buried inside...
How unfortunate he -the mystery is ...if he could ever knew what he just has lost ahhh...
Love is a magic that doesn't need any unsaid and unsatisfied feeling as mystery ... Mystery is simply an excuse to which magic of love have always conquer ...
And she lived as magical as she was with leaving behind the mystery which remained as useless and disappointing as the mystery itself ...
Love and to be loved is a great blessing indeed but for the weak it’s only a pleasure of timely please ...
Love is for the roaring ones not for the trembling leaking souls.
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H u d a T a r i q
( Lahore / Pakistan )
ECHO OF THE INNOCENCE__________
FATHERLESS
Ah! What a great time to be alive I always wanted to pen this down so here it goes FATHERLESS! yeah, you heard it right now I am sure this question may arise in everyone’s mind that what it really meant? Or maybe people may ask what is Fatherless all about? So, as you all are aware of Fathers or Fatherhood but to me, it's a little different and one of its kind .so let me answer this question and elaborate a little more. Neither my father is dead nor he's lost infect he's alive and perfectly fine, the thing is he just not have that father’s soul and emotions as I have never experienced it at all and named it as "fatherless figure. Being a fatherless daughter is an unusual feeling yet unbearable of all. I am sure you all must be wondering but it’s the biggest darkest truth of my life having a fatherless figure as he never looked up to us like fathers do. He never cared about us to an inch in any sense at all like what we are doing in our lives or what we have been through all those years and days until now.
I know this will never be going to end but this little stubborn child in me keeps pushing me and vigorously looking for that One Father in Fatherless Figure but the struggle continues until it ends us! You know it’s really very painful when you know you have a father figure but it’s only a statue without a soul. All can see is it hurts and what am I supposed to do to fill that space within me that’s keep eating me and increasing my thirst even more and knowing that it will never be going to be filled with desired results. Do you know how it feels? It feels horribly hollow, empty, trembling, scary and unwanted. Well it’s been quite a long journey and I have learned to live with it all by myself as I am feed on this ...he brought me up this way but he didn't even bother to fill the empty space that I will be going to carry all my life I wish he could ever realize the damage he has already done.
This one's for you my FATHERLESS FATHER You need to know this all my childhood is gone waiting for you to be on my parents meeting and you never came, my teenage has gone waiting for you to protect me, rescue me and be my guard but again you never came and even when I graduated was waiting, holding a degree to hear that sound of fatherly proud words but as always that space remained empty. Now I am 30 years old without you and counting and I know you will still not even try to come and finally, all the hurricanes and heavy storms have been passed and we both are still alive to continue with the fatherless battle, don't we?
The only thing I am totally and constantly afraid of is my marriage I never wish or have any desire to get married to anyone because I see you in every man and I really don't want to have any men in my life let that space to be empty and cherish the sweet nothingness forever. There were the days
I use to feel you in every man and then here I am now living a NO MAN FIGURE LIFE that you gave me. I am no more what you want me to be I may be fatherless or featherless but I am a daughter of fatherly mom and as long as she's there I am enough and all alive and that’s the whole extract of a fatherless figure.
At the end of the day, the only wish I have is to escape from this enigma of the fatherless figure. I wish that day comes in my life when this one less lonely girl gets to meet his only father in the heavens forever. I really pray to GOD that if I really ever got a second chance please don’t curse me or bless me with this fatherless figure ever again all I want is this little innocent wish of being a daddy's little princess forever as I will be one of the fortunate ones if it ever happens and yes I will be... As for now, I have no desire of being a daughter of fatherless figure trust me its great disease and curse of all. May it never happen to have happened ever again in my life or anyone's life. So that was my ultimate survival story I cried a river and still, space is largely empty, dark and hollow.
And one thing more last but not the least I never celebrated my birthdays and father’s day yes never but in the end, I couldn't do anything about it but to suffer...No more now as I am all set for more and happier smiles and teeth bursting happiness coming all the way and no one owns this but I... caught you I know you all just think that if I ever hate my father for being this way well I would say no! Yes, it’s a No infect I feel sorry for him and it hurts too because you know it’s such a blessing and much of a life to be a Father but I guess it was a curse of nature that he is been eliminated from such nature's blessing and what about us daughters well there is nothing to worry just tilt that crown on your head and yes you will always be nature's little princess and that my love will always be with you that nobody can question. I hope my survival story doesn't hurt anyone because of its nothing but the reality. Cheers to life because you only live once so make the most and best out of it whether you are a daddy's little princess or a Fatherless daughter!
I loved a Coward!
Once there was a girl who loved a guy with all her heart and soul and he also replied the same as the days go by she following her heart at every step to make him realize and believe that she loves her too and he kind of believed her and she loved him so deep that there was no way going back but t her lover seemed doubtful but was still there as a confused or maybe like a coward lover and he couldn't love her as she wanted to be loved .So the mystery starts from here the guy wanted to love but didn't seemed so and lack the courage but the girl is all gone and deep in love only dead could apart them.
On the other hand, one less lonely girl decided to approach him finally and expressed all that she had saved for so long to him and she did it like a warrior and there was no going back. This all happened because of the love and signs given by him and she was daring enough to text him first on his social media account as someone else just to test her love which she thought he could surely pass so she started a conversation on daily basis through online media not decided to meet yet and he also started talking with a flow. After a few days, she finally asked him do you love anyone and he replied NO, not at all and it was the moment of her life she was shocked clears her throat and took a deep breath. She calmed herself by giving him another chance so with all new strength she told him the truth that who she really is and he replied with puzzled mind saying who are you? And acted like nothing really happened and ran away just like that such a cowardly dog and that was the day her life changed completely all the sweet memories, future building, fairy tales shattered while she was busy picking her pieces as he left her broken all alone in her castle of love but she was a big girl then she stood up ever so strong and build her castle ever so strong with all the guarded walls around and protection sheet ever so high so that no one reach her unless the deserved one. She's now protected and relieved with no desired of love and to be loved as someone had spelled her heart to be filled with emptiness and nothingness. How someone turns the one into nothing and still not realizing the damage they have done to the one? Petty me I loved a coward!
Magical Pit
It was a day to remember she was swirling around in her thoughts of having a true love and just right then a young yet mysterious soul looked at her , she felt something deep down and seems like she found one.
He used to follow her wherever she goes as if he can't even breathe unless he sees her. And the most interesting part is she knows who's following her... The one she always dreamt of but it was still a mystery as following her was not enough because she has gone far and wanted more of him...
But the magic of him and mystery made her curious she tried all the possible doors to enter..
He thought he was smart enough that to never let her know of what he's up to...As he was just a mystery which never or ever can be understood but nature helped her and soon she realized that she's following an unanswered path..
So she finally approached him and was near to her never-ending grief ...
She innocent and true fell for someone who never really took her serious but enjoyed the true magic love of hers...
She was a magic and he just a mystery...
It all ended as she dig a magical pit and herself fell into it with unknown feelings and infinite questions buried inside...
How unfortunate he -the mystery is ...if he could ever knew what he just has lost ahhh...
Love is a magic that doesn't need any unsaid and unsatisfied feeling as mystery ... Mystery is simply an excuse to which magic of love have always conquer ...
And she lived as magical as she was with leaving behind the mystery which remained as useless and disappointing as the mystery itself ...
Love and to be loved is a great blessing indeed but for the weak it’s only a pleasure of timely please ...
Love is for the roaring ones not for the trembling leaking souls.
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